Thoughts.

Do you think 21 is a young age to be getting married at? I will be just barely that age when I get married and my fiance will still be 5 months away from being 21. How young is "too" young to be getting married at? Is there even an age at which people should NOT get married at because they are too young? I'd probably say a teenager but then again, I know several couples who have been married since they were 18/19 and are still going strong. To be honest, I'm a little worried I'll be looked down upon for getting married so young, as if people will think "you don't know what you're getting yourself into." Not to mention the fact that my fiance and I have only been together for one year, seven months. Are we rushing??

Quite frankly, I don't think I'm rushing into anything. Although my fiance and I have not been together for even two years, I still feel as though my heart could belong to no one other than him; I truly believe that he is my soul mate. If I know this young (19 years old) that the man I've been with for over a year can calm any of my fears, wipe away any of my fallen tears, can cure any broken heartedness of mine, and make me feel like the luckiest and happiest girl on the plante, then why wait to get married? Why not start our beautiful life together as soon as we can and prove to the world that we don't have to be older or even out of college to have a wonderful life together?? That's exactly what we're going to do; get married young and love life to the fullest!

My fiance will be out of school before me (5 months before we get married, actually) and will be able to get a stable job to help support our future lives together. I'll be in school for about 2 more years and I know it's going to be hard to deal with the stress of school and living on our own. So what? So what if I want to live with my young and handsome hubby and do whatever young and fun activities young married couples do? So what if I want to make a huge commitment at the age of 21, knowing that our marriage is going to last a lifetime? I wouldn't want to spend the rest of my young and ruthless years with anybody but him.

I know we'll have our troubles. I know we'll have our fights. I know we'll run out of money. I know we won't always get what we want. That's the beauty of marriage; getting through it all and still being together and happy of the fact. I'll tell you the truth, I'm scared of what life will throw at us. All the while, though, I'm thrilled as ever. So here's to us and a special friend (who's also getting married relatively young): Let our new lives with our hubbies be filled with blessings, exciting times, trials that we can overcome, and an extreme abundance of happiness. Cheers!!

30 November 2010

Today is the last day of November. That means tomorrow will be December and 25 days closer to Christmas. I'm thrilled!

I've discovered that I'm a pretty bad blogger. Not only do I hardly say much on my posts, but I rarely post much of anything when I actually decide to make an update. Maybe it's because the one blog I read on a regular basis has a small little blurb of updates with more pictures than words. Sometimes, I think photos speak loader than words. I guess that's why I choose pictures over words sometimes. But not today.

I've been reading this book called "Offbeat Bride" and it talks about all kinds of alternative ideas for brides who want to walk the path-not-many-people-take when they're walking down the isle to their future hubby. Although some of the ideas aren't exactly my kind of twist (like wearing a dramatic costume-like gown for the wedding dress), it's refreshing to get new ideas. Plus, I've found that my small areas of free time are great for reading!

Naturally, though, I think I might go for the "traditional" kind of wedding; only men as groomsmen and vise versa, the long white wedding gown (still pondering this, though) and heels for all the girls instead of flats or other various shoes. I might, however, have colored shoes instead of white heels. I'm going for a vintage feel for the wedding and I think it would be neat to have a greenish-blue colored shoe/heel. I haven't figured all those details out, though...

I also have no idea who I want to be in my wedding. I know for a fact who my Maid of Honor is going to be (my best friend whom everyone thinks is my sister, since we look so much alike) but concerning the rest of the girls, I'm clueless. The book talked about choosing people who really mean a lot to you and vise versa. At first, I thought of all these girls whom I wanted to be the bridesmaids but then I thought "Well, what is the most important reason as to why I want them in the wedding?" The book said that when you're asking the girls to be a part of the wedding, you should come up with a reason why. Well, I'm kind of stumped. I haven't had a lot of super duper close girlfriends over the years and the two that I can think of is my Maid of Honor and one other girl who, unfortunately, lives in Germany. I do have two others, though, that live out of state whom I've been friends with since 2nd grade but because of the distance, it's hard to know if they are really going to be committed. Plus, we've changed so much over the years of being apart and I'm really nervous of asking them. This is going to be a challenge. :/

Besides the challenge of not knowing who I want to be in the wedding (for my side, that is---my fiance already has about 4 guys picked out. Lucky him.) I have to figure out where to have the wedding. I know, I know, I have about a year and a half to get everything situated but the venue must be decided on very soon. Next spring my fiance and I will be scouting out places to hold the reception and I'm excited, but nervous---I want the place to reflect who my fiance and I are as individuals, as well as a couple. Not to mention, I want it to fit perfectly with the vintage-style theme. Plus I want all the table settings and decorations to coordinate with the venue. Geez, I've got a lot of planning to do!

This winter break will be a great time to start planning with my future hubby. We are going on a train/bus trip up to Colorado to visit my best friend and future Maid of Honor. We'll have plenty of time to look at online decorations, Set-the-Date card ideas, and venues around town to fill up the travel time. Like I said, I'm excited :D

Enjoy this very long post and soon I'll be putting up ideas for my wedding and maybe even share with you my wedding website!

Ta ta for now!

xoxo

20 November 2010

My love and I are engaged to be married <3

:)

When the World Ends

When the world ends, will it be your face that I get to witness last?
When the world ends, will you catch my hand before we fall down too fast?
As the world ends, I want your touch to be the last one I feel.
As the world ends, I hope my heart is the last thing you steal.
If the world ends, you will be the last thing on my mind.
If the world ends, I'm glad your beautiful soul was the last thing my heart
could find.

Urban Trash

"I am to be seen, not heard."

I was in a fashion show over the weekend!
It was really fun; I got to wear a dress that my cousin
and a couple of her friends made completely out of scratch!
They even did my hair and makeup. The dress was made of chicken
wire, napkins, soda cans, tissue paper, and star lights. I got
to walk on the runway for the first time and we were all judged
on who had the best dress. Mine didn't win but it was still
an awesome experience. My love was so sweet and said that I
was "made for the runway." <3 I don't think I'll do a modeling
thing again up on stage again but I never know what will happen.
Maybe I'll do it again...maybe not. It can be fun and exhilerating
but really stressful too. Being with all other other girl's and
hearing them yell and scream about their outfit and whatnot
can be pretty bothersome...

Anyway, enjoy these photos of my crazy hair, makeup & outfit! ;)

Autumn's Lover

Oh well,
In 5 years’ time we could be walking around a zoo
With the sun shining down over me and you
and there’ll be love in the bodies of the elephants too
and I’ll put my hands over your eyes, but you’ll peek through.

So what the heck,
Cuz’ I’ll be laughing at all your silly little jokes,
And we’ll be laughing about how we used to smoke.
All those stupid little cigarettes and drink stupid wine,
Cuz’ it was what we needed to have a good time.

Oh well I look at you and say it’s the happiest that I’ve ever been
and I’ll say I no longer feel I have to be James Dean,
and She’ll say,
yeah, Well I feel, oh pretty happy too,
And I’m always pretty happy when I’m just kicking back with you.

And though a million of these moments are just in my head
I’ll be thinking about families an’ lying in bed
And ya know that I believe it might not even come true
But in my mind I’m having a pretty good time with you.

Oh, Five years time
I might not know you,
In Five Years Time
We might not speak at all and
In Five Years Time
We might not get along
In Five Years Time
You might just prove me wrong.


I love this new autumn season and the need to cuddle up with someone special just to keep warm. <3

Horray!

Horray horray horray! I finally recieved my Nikon camera! It's uber exciting to finally have a DSLR besides my two SLRs that I use for my film class. My new little friend is named Arwen. I got the name from The Lord of the Rings; Arwen is the main female elf in the movie and the second most beautiful. I think the most beautiful (female) elf is Galadriel. She's so lovely. If you haven't watched The Lord of the Rings, I think you should. Like right now. Go! ;D

While I Waited

I sat in the coffee shop, a few blocks away from campus, slowly eating the cinnamon-topped whipped cream off of my Mexican Latte. Looking around, I saw people chatting with friends, studying for exams, and looking at the aray of magazines the shop provided. Two elderly women in front of me were talking about family affairs, drinking red wine. My whipped cream was beginning to melt and I was getting hungrier when my meal came; hot, creamy, curly macaroni & cheese. As I began to eat slowly as to not burn my tounge, I realized that I was alone, eating alone; there was nobody beside me. There was no warm soul sitting next to me, telling me about their adventure of the day, explaining that the world is full of wonderful, sponatneous surprises. I had wished there was. As I looked at my food and slowly scanned the room, I realized I wasn't the only one sitting alone. There were others too, although they all seemed to be occupied with tasks of their own; I was left to eat and drink with nothing but my thoughts of loneliness to keep me company. As I finished my meal and tried to drink the rest of my lukewarm coffee, you came. Your bright smile and the glow of your heart captivated me, sucking me into a moment where only you and I existed. I was content. No, I was exuberant for your lovely appearance. I want to thank you for tonight, for that moment, for the one second of my night where I realized I wasn't alone; I was only waiting...and you came. <3

Little Lion Man

I've been listening to a lot of new music lately and I wish my i-pod could be Pandora. That way, I'd always have the best new music to listen to and I'd never get bored of any of it. Favourite new bands include: Mumford & Sons, Doris Cellar, Marina & The Diamonds, Royksopp, The Decemberists, Matt Costa, Waking Ashland, Noah and the Whale, Wilco, Ra Ra Riot, Lenka. I have many more but I can't remember them all!

The weather has been cooling down lately and I would be lying if I didn't say that I'm excited for the new season of cold weather to arrive. I've already gotten excited about the new & thick warm scarves that we're getting in at work and I've collected a few warm cardigans and sweaters. I can't wait for my nose to be pink with cold, too. Weird, isn't it? I think it's weird how we get so used to one season and fall in love but then when the next one starts showing signs that it's about to come, we get excited and ready to embrace it. Well, at least I do. The leaves are changing as well and I plan to take some photos of them before they all fall off. Although when they do, I plan to also dance in the fallen leaves. <3

I just purchased my very first DSLR: the Nikon d5000 and a Nikon portrait lens. I'm currently awaiting it to arrive in the mail. I'm ubber excited, to say the least. I can't wait to finally have one.

Happy Halloween :)

While I was bored

So I was supposed to be doing homework but I decided to make a video. And this is what I produced. ;P

Drilled and Invaded

Does the sun make you cry, dear?
What is it that tears those eyes of yours, dear?
My hands will comfort you, they will hold you.
Don't let those eyes cry, dear.

Windy City

Lately, I've been up and down.
I've been sick for a while now
and last week seemed like the longest
week I've had in a long time.
When it rained this week,
I felt like doing nothing.

Tonight, I want to watch
a romance movie.
I think it should be
in French, too.

"If I wrote a poem for the one I love, I wouldn't say it will change the passing of time, nor the feelings I have for her. I promise it will, though, bring a smile to my heart as I dwell on the fond memories replacing those, much previous, of cold days with no fire to keep my bones warm. Today my heart sits in fond silence as my hands write a new way to say I love you."

<3

Jail Bird, Jail Bird

Have you ever listened to a song on the radio, a mixed CD, or your shuffled Ipod and thought, "Wow, this is totally reflective of my life right now"? I have been thinking that quite a lot lately. Some are love songs, some are trying-to-find-out-who-you-are songs, and some are lets-try-to-change-the-world songs. I've been loving more mellow songs lately too. Songs from Cat Power and Angus and Julia Stone, to be specific. I think it's because I'm trying to be as creative as I can be with my photography and writing and slow songs allow me to think more, or maybe just think more clearly. I also think more mellow songs with hidden messages allow me to color my mind, expand my imagination, and allow my creativity to burn throughout my veins. I love it when I'm in these moods...when only indie and non-radio bands and songs can only satisfy my current music preferences and desire to hear something new. Even when I listen to a few of my favourite bands over and over again, I still hear new things; new words that I didn't catch before, new meanings in what they are singing about, and maybe new chords that didn't hit my ear drums previously. Music, like love, fuels my heart. There are so many beautiful things in music and so many beautiful things that writers put to music. I owe a lot of musicians credit for inspiring me to write certain things and to take certain photos. I would like to take the time to list a few...

-Angus & Julia Stone
-Daphne Loves Derby
-Coldplay
-Eisley
-Maritime
-Cat Power
-She & Him
-M. Ward
-Copeland
-The Shins
-Adele
-A Fine Frenzy
-Colour Revolt
-Death Cab for Cutie
-Iron & Wine
-Keane
-Norah Jones

Stripes and Pearls

Hype me :))

I got a lookbook!
Now let's see where this wonderful door may take me <3

Low

"All you ever wanted was love but you never looked hard enough."

First week of school is over.
Woo!
It went by pretty fast, until Wednesday;
then I was ready for the weekend.
But Friday is finally here
and I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
I'm doing another photoshoot with my friend.
He's going to photograph me in the cityyy.
I'm excited :)
Not to mention I'll be going to some camera
stores to look for some new lenses for my Minolta.
Because I'm cool like that I am learning how to
get better at film.
Yeah, I'm a little old school.
But I love it <3

I still want a Lookbook.
Sigh.

Summer Fades Away

And today is my last day of summer.
Geez it sure went by fast!
I've got many photos to help remind
me of all the fun and exciting things
I've done but I'll miss it.
I already miss the beach.
I already miss the (few) swimming days.
I already miss the carefree late nights
spent with friends & loved ones.
Summer had to end eventually,
I suppose.
Well, thank you summer of 2010
you were exciting :)
Here's to another jam-packed school year.
<3

Forever

The other day, my boyfriend and I went to the park
and we acted like kids again.
It was wonderful.
Although at times we can still pretend that
we're kids again,
in the end we're still getting older.
And we'll always be getting older.
So I propose we act like kids whenever
we can :)
Because we're never going to get
those wasted hours back when we were too
uptight and tried to "act our age."
Because after all...
kids have the most fun anyway.
:)

Enjoy today, right now, and every moment
of your life.

I hope you do.

<33

This one's for you

I got a new cardigan :)
This one's from Ann Taylor Loft.
It's quite comfy!

Sooo I start school again in exactly
2 weeks from today.
I'm kinda nervous...but excited to
go back.
I hope I get into the black and white
photography I signed up for.
Right now I'm just on the waiting list :/
Anndddd my drawing class ends
this Wednesday.
Finally!
Not that I don't like drawing
but I just didn't like the class.
Glad it's going to be over soon.

I'm painting my room this week.
Mmmm I'm excited! haha :)

Never Gonna Keep it

"Well she just wanders around unaffected by the winter winds, yeah
and she'll pretend that
well she's somewhere else
so far and clear
about 2,000 miles from here."

Someday.
I'll be there.
New York,
L.A.
Somewhere.
And I'll be
good at what
I can do.

I hope.
:|

To Enjoy Them

I love my vintage-looking bird necklace.
It makes me happy.
I recently helped my friend out with filming his
first music video.
View it here: http://www.youtube.com/user/MrJoshuaBB
And check out mine & my boyfriend's channel here: http://www.youtube.com/DesertDreamers

Thanks!

Much love <33

H&M Success

I took a few photos & I'm hoping of getting a Lookbook soon.
I've been wanting one for quite some time but I don't have an invitation :/
Let's hope I get one soon!

So this outfit is from H&M (except the shoes-they're from Forever 21).
I got the top in California on Hollywood Boulevard ;D
It was sooo crazy when I walked in--there were so many great
pieces of clothing that I wanted and I couldn't choose which ones
to take!
But in the end, I ended up with a simple gray dress, this striped
top, gray belt, a flower tank, high rise shorts, and some aviators.
I was looking for a long cardigan that I had found at American
Apparel (it was about 50 bucks so I didn't want to spend half
my money on one thing...) and I wasn't so lucky at H&M, unfortunately.
HOWEVER, I did find an $8 one at the BIGGEST Forever 21 I've ever seen!
It was in Glendale Arizona and it was like a department store!
It had two stories of nothing but clothes, shoes, and accessories!
Not to mention, they also had a guys section along with a little boys
and girls section.
My boyfriend found some cool things too so it was nice to shop together :)

Anyway, I hope this looks good & I hope I get a Lookbook soon.

Ciao for now <3

Change

I change my hair. Can you notice?

A lot of the time, I like to change myself but it's mostly in very
small ways, which people hardly notice. But oh well.

I have A LOT of photos from our trip to California & I'm
in the process of editing & choosing my favourites. It might
take me a while ;)

I'm going back to my drawing class (next Wednesday is the
last day!) and I must go work on some white charcoal drawings...

So ciao!

<3

This is Old

But in the next week, this boy and I will be taking a lottt of new photos.

And they will all be from California.

I'm super excited!

So I'll be gone for a week--and will be loving the ocean air.

<33

Toodles, my bloggers.

You're Looking for the Sunset

David and I took these photos a few days ago. Along with some photos with my lovely little nephew. For David and I, this summer has been quite busy compared to last summer. We're both keeping busy with work and other projects (helping out in a car shop for him, taking a drawing class for me) and although we don't spend as much time together as we have before, we still cherish the little time we have together anyway. You could call us romantics- we're hopeless ;) But we're hopeless together. And to think that two and a half years ago I would have NEVER imagined myself with this guy...and now look at us. I can't explain how well we fit together...like peanut butter & jelly, like two peas in a pod, like macaroni and cheese. Well, you get the picture ;) We're just "lucky in love with (our) best friends."

Sooo enough about my love life. How is everyone else? How is your summer going? Any travel plans or projects going on? In 6 days my mom, my sister, my nephew, David and I will be travelling to California. I'm ubber excited :D I've been wanting to see the ocean for quite some time now--it's been too long since I've seen it last. We're going to Disney Land, Universal Studios, San Diego Zoo and more! I can't wait to see the smiles on my nephew's face..he's going to LOVE it.

Anyway, that's a short little update from me. I hope all is well for everyone.

God Bless!

I want this

LOOKBOOK.nu: "DORioN' - Somewhere (feat. Brad Thomas Ackley & Jenny O)" by Juliett K.

Everything she's wearing. Plus her hair and that braid. I LOVE it!

I think I want to be a fashion photographer.
Now how to get there...?

LOOKBOOK.nu: "DORioN' - Somewhere (feat. Brad Thomas Ackley & Jenny O)" by Juliett K.

Shhh

in 13 days I get to see the Ocean.


<3

I can't escape

my love for photography.
I may not think of it on a constant daily basis
and it may not fill my mind 24/7
but I'm going to do it.
I'm going to major in photography.
Not art, not music.
Photography.
So here's to making up my mind (finally)
and taking the next step.
I will not take any negative feedback from
unsupportive friends and/or family members
because they may not understand my passion.
I drives my soul so I'm finally going to let it.
Here's to not being afraid
and here's to letting God take hold of my life
and letting Him work his wonders.
Praise God for creativity too.

I'm very happy for finally following my heart
and I hope this new path leads me to wonderous places.
The best is yet to come, I've heard. ;)

I tried something new: I hope it looks good.

I Saw Toy Story 3

and I just about cried my eyes out!
Haha it was so touching, I can't even begin
to explain how amazing it was!
Andy grows up and goes off to college...
can you beleive it??
Where did my childhood go?
Well, I can say that I'm truly happy that
Toy Story began while I was still young
and innocent. I'll miss you Woody & Buzz <3

Anyone who hasn't seen it really should!

This is the way that they know

because my heart won't let it go.

I feel so creative right now. It might not show in my work (or does it?) but my mind is going boggles with creativeness (is that even a word??). If I could paint right now, I'd want to splatter a million colors all over my walls, just because I could. But being me, I'd probably want to change it the next day or so. That's the weird thing: I like change when I want it but when things change, I want so bad for them to be the way they were before. Maybe that happens to a lot of people, I don't know. Anyway, I can be very fickle at times. Today, I changed my outfit two times and I'm already thinking of changing again. Or maybe I just want to go shopping...I LOVE shopping! I think I should stop working in retail though. I spend WAY too much money & hardly save for anything I really want/need. Like a new camera! and film! and money to shop in California! I just realized that we leave for California in exactly a month. Oh dear, I do need to save.

Enjoy your Tuesday, my dear blog readers.

Ciao!

She's made of sulfur

all her friends say "ring, ring, ring, where are you hiding?"

I have a major drawing due next Wednesday and the porportions are wrong. I can't figure it out :/ Why can't I just take photo classes and skip the drawing? Don't get me wrong, I love to draw. But I'm a perfectionest when it comes to that and when I can't figure something out, well frustraion consumes me. I'm sleepy now--drawing makes me a little too relaxed. I get to paint the walls at work tonight :) I'm excited for that. haha.

Last Year's Summer

this boy and I fell in love.
And we are still as strong as ever.
This is from our Colorado trip to visit a friend.
It was amazing (:

Hello Stranger

It's summer time & I love it :)

Happy Friday all!

Tigers Waiting to be Tamed

Good afternoon!
I've spent the day clipping out skirts, dresses, shoes and accessaries from only TWO of my fashion magazines and I'm already tired.
Did you know that cutting out magazine pictures hurts your hand a lot? I didn't think my hand could be so cramped...
Anyway, I'm doing this to help my fashion sense. I just got a new job in Uptown (for those of you who don't know, in my city, that's where all the nice & expensive shops are) and the styling for all the workers has to be really good. I'd like to think I dress well and know how to put looks together but a little help from the pros is always good, donchya think?
So far, I've gotten a lot of ideas of new outfits and how to mix & match my current ones with new additions. It's exciting :) Too bad I haven't gotten paid yet!
I can't wait til I have a stable job, I'm out of school, and living with my future hubbie. Ohhh, it will be just wonderful ;D

Ciao!

On a quiet night such as this

I have rediscovered a beautiful band. I did not realize that Train was so amazing and I'm sad that I only now have realized this. I hope you enjoy some old-school Train:



Also, pick up their latest album Train: Save me, San Francisco. I promise it won't disapoint.

Hello Holga!

I got my prints back! I was very excited but nervous when I went to pick them up. I thought they would be all dark or with too much movement or any other kind of picture-taking mistake. I actually think they turned out well! Here are my favs:

Yeah

We know how to party :{D
Haha this was for my 19th birthday party.
Last year, for my 18th, we had mustaches too.
But this year was sooo much better.
I think I have an obsession with mustaches.
Yes, I do believe I do.
But how can you not??
;)

How is everybody?
I see I have a few new followers.
I'm at 5 now!

Haha.
I hope you all enjoy reading my blog.

I don't always have time to post...

Darn school takes up a lot of time.
But it's almost over!
Praise God <3

I hope everyone has a beautfiul Sunday.

Finally

I got one!

Banana Mouth

(sorry for bad quality)
We enjoyed our bananas last night :)

Spring Is What I've Missed

Does the weather seem to be warming up? It seems to be here in the South West. But the mornings are usually so cold that I forget how warm the afternoons will turn out to be. Isn't that such a bummer? You go to class wearing a coat just to keep you warm for the early morning hours, only to end up carrying it the rest of the day because the day turns out to be a hot one. I love it nonetheless. I guess you could say that I'm a "Spring Time Girl." Essentially, this time of the year is when my winter blues start to fade away and the new flower blossoms bloom into my world, bringing lovely subtle colors of pinks, yellows, and purples. This is when my heart starts to bloom as well. My fingers are no longer frozen with the winter, and I am now able to reach out, pick a flower, and thank Mother Nature for giving birth to new flower buds. As my hands are full of flowers and the smell of fresh new soil, my heart takes in the scent and skips a beat as the lovely spring kisses my cheek. These words do not bring justice to how much I love the spring. Spring time is also full of love! This time last year I fell in love with a wonderful guy and to this day, we are still happily together. This time last year, he picked flowers for me, drew flowers for me, and called me his own "flower." It made me love spring even more than I had before.

I hope everyone is enjoying the spring time, even if the mornings still feel quite chilly.

By the way, visit: http://loveexhibition.deviantart.com

Thank you (:

I dare not say

How little my heart breaks
nor how much I wrestle and wake
when I remeber how much is at stake.
I dare not say
how much I wish to speak
and how much it hurts to think
of how hard this must be.
I dare not say
how I walk alone at night
with just the moon by my side
and pray to God til daylight.
I dare not say
how much I wish for you to see
this star that has followed me
and whispered how you can be free.
I dare not say
how much my feeble heart loves you
and how He has made me anew,
oh, how I wish you knew.
I dare not say
that today or tomorrow is the day
when I can take your hand and say,
"There's someone to show you the way."

March Mustache Madness

This man's beard/mustache has made my day.

And this was just cute (:

So I'm currently at the university right now, waiting for my guitar ensemble class to start. I have a head ache and my back is killing me. I'd like a back rub. Mmmm now wouldn't that be nice. And good news! It has warmed up today! It's so warm that I could probably break out a skirt and go for a walk, without shivering. This is very good news, indeed. I can't wait until more flowers and trees begin to bloom. Some have started, but many are still asleep in hibernation. Praise God spring is almost here. <3

God Bless everyone, hope you have a lovely week.